You know if I hadn't thrown out all my ciggarette makings or had someone to bum a few off of at 3am in the morning I would be cheating on my quitting right now. Iam unusually stressed today.
Friday, July 11, 2008
ugh!! kids!!!
ugh if today wasn't bad enough. I get a page typed out and lose it. *sighs*
So here we go again.
We got our government stimulus check today, so I decided to get the school shoping done early.
Not a problem for my son other then I made him come with, and his feet hurt by the time we were done.
he outgrew all his pants, undies, pj's.. at the end of the year all his pants were to short now they dont fit his waist either. LOL the 14s of last year got bagged to go to goodwill. I bought him a bunch of 18-20's and hope they least through this year. Pants have adjustable waists so I hope they will. But he needed everything shoes, socks, undies, PJ's a new belt. his school shirts from last year are still good and i got him 1 pair of pants earlier this week so it was a hunt to find him 4 more.
First gripe. WALMART had NO PJ's for boys his size. Period. None. not even sweats, so I ended up getting him some mens bottoms in smalls with drawstrings, gotta get him a pack of t-shirts later.
So I go to look for bitchzilla. I found her 2 nice pairs of white stag slacks with front pockets straight legged, never seen 4x in walmart before but I am glad. Means she could wear them properly. NOW for the gripe. She refuses to wear her pants right. She is 240+ lbs now. And has a stomach she already has the overhang pannus us fat people get. And she refuses to accept it.
I can understand her not wanting to. But the alterntive is worse. she wears her pants up UNDER her stomach. Which means that just about everything in her wardrobe BUT her school uniforms is way to small. Leaving her stomach hang out. Or her bending over and showing her ass/panties. This is against school policy.
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From the school website:
2008-2009
Pants, trousers, capris, shorts
Colors: Black, navy, or khaki
All pants/trousers/capris/shorts must be standard fit or relaxed fit, flat-front or pleated with standard waists. No cargo pants, slits, cuts, tears, or frays, (including laced sidings), brand names, slogans, or handwritten messages. Must be worn at the waist level. Size and length must be reasonably appropriate for the student’s weight and height. Must be worn as intended by the manufacturer and may not sag below the hips or drag the ground. Pants/trousers/capris/shorts may have a 1 inch by 1 inch label.
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Plus for bum around the house/sleep wear I got her 2 pairs of shorts and tank tops.
HUGE fits she threw. Slamming doors and screeching. But not a word at all the socks, undies, the locker mirror kit she asked for, or the fact I dug through the ENTIRE underwear rack to find her something NON GRANNY looking in her size.
She threw another fit cause I got her a trapper keeper for school. They have ALWAYS used the soft zippered keepers (hard binder types are not allowed) since like 5th grade. I even got them ones with the holes in em to allow for portable mp3 players to be kept inside and allows the headphones through.
Shes been extremly bitchy lately and selfish. Shes lately took to turning of the Air conditioning and letting the house get like 76-80 degrees cause shes cold. O.o because shes living in to small shorts and tank tops that dont cover her gut!!!
Then when I wake up drenched in sweat and gasping for air in 80+ degree room she wonders why she gets yelled at.
Ugh Time to go game with Marv maybe that will calm me down more.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Day 4
Day 4 of quitting smoking. It hasn't been easy thats for sure. But thanks to the patches its been way easier then past times I have had to try to quit. I guess allot of it is I got to quit this time. I do want to be healthier. And want to make it past 40. Though the temptation to just say hell with it and buy some cigs is there. lol
But the fact that I either have grocery $$ or cigarette money for this week is pretty damn powerfull too.
Ugh the patch though is driving me nuts. IT ITCHES for the first 2-3 hours after I put it on and yesterday I put my patches on my chest instead of my arms and now I have 2 big red areas that hurt on my chest. Square one from my nicoderm patch and a oval one from my nitro patch. The skins burned. ick and owwie.
Gotta go back to the doc on the 14th so I am gonna ask him for something to help with the skin breakouts from the adhesives. I've been carefull not to use the same places to often but the nicoderm patches are so huge its hard to find a place they will stay on. They aren't to flexable either so finding a spot to put them is trickey. I've taken to putting a bandaid over it most of the time after the first day the first patch litterly fell off in the shower. Still haven't found it. lol
my biggest gripe is been lack of support at home. My BF tries but he hasn't been helping. So far the extent of his support has been " I know I had to quit also" But his was totally different. He HAD a condition of his lungs. he was sick as a dog and didn't really feel good enough to continue, He could barely breath. Which is a powerfull motivator to stop smoking.
I don't get that added help. I'm fine, well as fine as I can be as heavy as I am, and feeling the effects of this pretty intensely. Times I feel it the most, after meals and when in bed at night gaming with him.
And of course my daughter is being the bitch she always is so that sure don't help. But I've gotten to the point everytime she mouths off I take away computer time. Pisses her off and she charges into her room lol.
ahh well I need to go find some breakfast so I can take my fistfull of meds. Bleh.
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